Friday, January 22, 2016

Cancer

I am going out on a limb to say all of us, not most of us, know someone that has been affected by cancer. I do, a number of people...adults and kids....it's so prevalent in our society. Why? Here is a way for your voice to be heard. The Vice President, whom has been directly affected, wants your story...whether it's you or someone you know. We all want our voices heard, here's your chance.




Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Ice Day, Wasted Day

No snow, just ice, lots of wrecks also. I accomplished nothing today. That bothers me, I like to feel productive. I like to feel like I'm taking a step forward, but I'm not. Paralyzed is a better way to describe where I am. Fear....how did I get to this place? I used to be in the trenches of life....now I just watch. I feel so constrained, like chains wrapped around me, and I'm trying to break free. But it's so hard...why? Each time I feel ready and willing to just go and get free....I lose momentum...fear, paralyzed by the fear of failure...but why do I care if I fail. It's not like someone is going to be there ridiculing me, telling me I'm wrong, that I failed, that I'm worthless...there's only me saying it to myself...fear....Father help me break these chains that are holding me back...It feels so hard....

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Keeping It Real

Authentic.... I'm beginning to like this word more and more. So much of the time I feel constrained by my life....the expectations of others. I don't feel I can be as authentic as I would like. But are any of us? How many people do you know that are completely authentic? How many of us are taken by surprise when we hear or see a friend proclaim to be something we know they are not? We're privy to information others are not and so we see the proclamation through different eyes. Or, how many of us hold back and do not let others in...for whatever reason. How good is it to really know someone fully. Should we always just hang it out there for all to see? Shouldn't we always keep a part of ourselves private, just for us? But at the same time, I am what I am, see me for that. Do not project what you think I should be. Let me be authentic, let me be real. And I'll let you be the same...just don't hide, don't fake, keep it real.




Saturday, January 2, 2016

New Year.....New Day

I've been thinking lately of getting back to what this was, real. I don't like sugar coating, fake, not getting down and dirty when I feel the need. Just not sure if I'm really ready to go there....yet...except I've already been there. I wonder where she went, and what it will take to get her back...maybe a change, maybe it's finally time to leave the Jungle behind. But is that really the answer, there's so much history here.